Watch All Things Fall Apart Online Etonline' title='Watch All Things Fall Apart Online Etonline' />Selena Gomezs 1. Most Honest Revelations in Vogue From Justin Bieber and The Weeknd to Hating Instagram Selena Gomez is opening up The 2. Vogues April cover star, but its inside the mag that she gets really candid sharing new details about her three month break from the spotlight. Find news, interviews, reviews, photos, video and more from your favorite artists on MSN Music. Justin Bieber really frustrated and her new relationship with The Weeknd. Here are 1. 1 things we learned from Gomezs revealing interview, starting with her emotional breakdown last fall. The pressures of her world tour led to her three month break from the spotlight. Tours are a really lonely place for me, explains Gomez, who abruptly stopped her Revival tour in August, with more than 3. My self esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasnt good enough, wasnt capable. I felt I wasnt giving my fans anything, and they could see it which, I think, was a complete distortion. I was so used to performing for kids. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they werent good enough. Photo Mert Alas and Marcus PiggottVogue. Va8p54MDV2qTpd4B9UIx6HWJ5.jpg' alt='Watch All Things Fall Apart Online Etonline' title='Watch All Things Fall Apart Online Etonline' />Read reviews, watch trailers and clips, find showtimes, view celebrity photos and more on MSN Movies. Entertainment Tonight ET is the authoritative source on entertainment and celebrity news with unprecedented access to Hollywoods biggest stars, upcoming movies. Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 2. Im looking into their eyes, and I dont know what to say. I couldnt say, Everybody, lets pinky promise that youre beautiful It doesnt work that way, and I know it because Im dealing with the same sht theyre dealing with, she reveals. What I wanted to say is that life is so stressful, and I get the desire to just escape it. But I wasnt figuring my own stuff out, so I felt I had no wisdom to share. And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, This is a waste of time. Shes committed to not talking about her new romance with The Weeknd. While Gomez acknowledged her romance with the Starboy singer in her Vogue interview she refused to talk about the new relationship. When I ask Gomez about the romance, she tells me that everything she has said about her relationships in the past has come back to bite her, and that she will never do it again, writer Rob Haskell says. Shes still flying off the grid kind of. I think seventeen people have my phone number right now, Gomez says in the interview, also revealing that her assistant is the only one with her Instagram password. Maybe two are famous. While the singer wouldnt reveal which two, were banking on Taylor Swift and The Weeknd. She cries. a lot. The former Disney star isnt afraid to express her emotions, even in front of thousands of people. Ive cried onstage more times than I can count, she told Vogue. And Im not a cute crier. Photo Mert Alas and Marcus PiggottVogue. She wants to release Spanish language music. Gomez, who was named after singer Selena Quintanilla Prez, told the magazine that she was taking Spanish lessons again after speaking the language fluently as a child, in the hopes of later recording Spanish language music. She considers her 9. Ive done. Shortly after canceling her tour last fall, the singer flew to Tennessee, surrendering her cell phone as she joined a treatment program with individual therapy, group therapy and equine therapy. You have no idea how incredible it felt to just be with six girls, she says, real people who couldnt give two shs about who I was, who were fighting for their lives. It was one of the hardest things Ive done, but it was the best thing Ive done. She sees her therapist five days a week. Since leaving treatment, Gomez has continued therapy. The actress sees her own therapist five days a week, and has become a passionate advocate of Dialectical Behavior Therapy, a method previously used to treat borderline personality disorder, but is now used as a broader form of treatment. Watch Ouija Online Free HD. DBT has completely changed my life, she confesses. I wish more people would talk about therapy. We girls, were taught to be almost too resilient, to be strong and sexy and cool and laid back, the girl whos down. We also need to feel allowed to fall apart. She has a hard time saying no to photographs which made somebody she used to hang out with presumably Justin Bieber angry. Somebody I used to hang out with would always get very frustrated with me for taking photos with fans, she reveals, though refuses to utter Biebers name. But I have a hard time saying no to children. Photo Mert Alas and Marcus PiggottVogue. She was an Instagram addict. As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out, Gomez says. It had become so consuming to me. Its what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didnt want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didnt want to care about. I always end up feeling like sh when I look at Instagram. Which is why Im kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit. She tried hard not to be the child star gone wrong. For a guy theres a way to rebel that can work for you, Gomez claims of creating distance from the Disney brand. But for a woman, that can backfire. Its hard not to be a clich, the child star gone wrong. I did respect my fans and what I had, but I was also figuring out what I was passionate about and how far I was willing to go. I worked with Disney for four years, Gomez adds. Its a very controlled machine. They know what they represent, and there was, 1. Her mom encouraged her to take on her racy Spring Breakers role. When Gomez was finally ready to shed her Disney image, she did it fast and with the blessing of her mother, Mandy Teefey. My mom wanted me to work with a director who would really push me, she recalls. I watched Kids, Trash Humpers, Gummo, and I was like, Mom, are you crazy But it was fun to imagine how you might behave if you were set free of whatever was holding you captive. Im a late bloomer. I grew up around adults, but in terms of getting out, having friends at times I really didnt know anything but my job.